Let's try this again.
Yesterday, I deleted these pics because I was immediately hit with two factions of obnoxious.
The "I don't ever talk to you but baby, I know you want this" crowd and the "I just talk about you & you are not wanted anywhere" crowd.
After a lot of thought & some feisty messages from my crowd (the one that matters), guess what?
I'm back, bitches.
Here's the thing: I can feel good if I want & you don't get to harass me. I can also embrace my body, my diet (finally freaking #keto is no longer killing me), my hard work, & my sexuality without feeling ashamed because you think I should.
As #rihanna the artist (not my #rihannathecat) once said, if you are bothered by me, "STAY UP OFF MY INSTAGRAM." #ketodiet#ketolifestyle#bodypositive
I was changing for kickboxing today and I came face to face with my arch nemesis... the mirror. I ALWAYS avoid looking at myself in a full body mirror at all costs but today I walked by and I looked. And at first all I could see were the flaws. How large and lumpy my legs and hips are, how gigantic my arms look, etc. BUT before I allowed myself a pity party, I thought of all the things this body can do now that it couldn't six weeks ago. When I started working out six weeks ago I could barely make it through the warm up at kickboxing. I left in tears at my first strength training day because I felt so weak and pathetic. But I stuck with it. I've worked my ass off. And this body can not only do a warm up but can get through the whole workout. This body gets stronger and stronger every day. I've put my body through hell and back all these years and it's still holding up. This is a good body. And my whole mindset suddenly shifted. I looked again in the mirror and I saw two strong legs that can do a mean roundhouse. I saw two strong arms that pack a punch. I started looking at my body with love instead of criticizing it and I saw the changes. How my calves are more defined, how my leggings used to be so tight that my fat would fall over the top, how the stomach area of my leggings is now loose and I can fit both fists in there comfortably where it used to be so tight, digging into my skin. I noticed how my bum has lifted and rounded out more and my back fat is getting smaller and creating a nice slope down my backside that didn't previously exist. Changes are happening, you just have to love your body enough to see them. 💪🏻❤️ #selflove#bodypositive#weightlossjourney#weightlosstransformation#weightloss#kickboxing#kickboxinggirl#selfimprovement
Real talk over a rice cake smeared with peanut butter and cinnamon: I have had a bit of a learning curve with this whole Intuitive Eating business. I have Food Issues and probably always will, so this new reset of how I look at nutrition has been a bit of a challenge at times. I do not do well with calorie restriction. It gets nasty real quick. BUT one of the most effective ways to lose fat/gain muscle is to have a slight calorie deficit with increased protein, so I've been walking this line between paying attention to calories and very purposefully not letting it control me. It is, frankly, really fucking hard. It's also working. I've lost some fat, gained some muscle, and have slowly but surely been moving closer to my goal. Finding what works can be really tricky, but OH WOW is it an amazing revelation when you find it. Here's to small, important changes. ✨👊💪❤
Are you a recovering people pleaser??⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Or maybe you’re still on it, aiming to please left and right,⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
putting yourself last.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Let that go. We don’t have to live from a space of obligation⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
You get to honor yourself first and foremost,⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Your deep well of energy drains fast if you’re not prioritizing filling it first⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Make sure you’re loving yourself first, and then from that space, share love with others that are worthy of your time and attention⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀