These days keep flying by and half of the time I don’t know what I’ve done
The closer and closer it gets to March
the closer and closer i get to marking my last day of being 18
It’s crazy how many milestones happened once i turned the big 1 8
But now that i’m going to be 19 soon
I don’t know what to expect
Overall, in life, in what i want to be
I don’t know what to expect
Turning 18 changed so much to the extent that turning 19 is like turning into a whole new person
what keeps me going is
let’s see where the journey takes us☕️
how did you guys figure out what you wanted out of life? Better yet, how did you figure out the way you want to live your days?
Late night yoga.
Finding some me time after a hard workout today. Be kind to you body and show it some love. It is one of the most important and beneficial things you can do for yourself🖤 #bodymindsoul
Keep your chin up and just -keep- going. •
Gonna be open a sec.. All I've had lately is adversity - bad stuff. It has turned me very cold to the world , isolated. Have noticed my anxiety kicking in, ptsd wreaking havoc-anger defence triggered. Become damaged, like so many. People are cruel, you meet the wrong ones. Some hurt you , make you believe all sorts, take advantage of the goodness in you. I am not alright in the scheme of things yet everyone fights their personal battles often repressed. And you want to help someone with theirs even when you're struggling? That's love actually. It exists♥️. Sometimes it's not easy. I'm personally in a worse place mentally. I fight my own mind constantly - compare myself to others due to parts of my life I rather can't or won't yet discuss. I can't deal with mental battles unseen, fighting feelings. My past holds true power over me - then people have used it against me so I feel broken . Lost love creeps in to tell me I've failed, am nothing, nobody I want or love will want me (as situations lately seem to have proven) . Not good. The mind has a terrible way of muddling stuff . It's not a good place to be in. Often so called "perfect " that everyone wants , Insta models - semi famous locals and the like who have their life together. So.. ? In a tough place it's so easy to drag yourself down. I constantly have to convince myself - I am worthy, I will be enough, I must focus, can't let this take over or I'll lose who I am . Can't cope as things are becoming hard - just need to keep my empathy/compassion for people. Going to have to keep them at arms length while I heal- unless full trust exists. When you've been hurt by so many from even your birth? Knowing it all, and more for adult life - you're genuinely not going to trust anyone. I have come to terms with no matter how guarded or untrusting, no matter who hurts me I will never let myself go cold .I can offer the world my voice, experiences and insight. We all can 🌎💕 Stay strong . X