This is the day I’ve waited all my life for. The most holy day of the year. #goodfriday a man that I dated once smirked at me for gushing over #goodfridayappeal He snapped, what makes it so good? I was a dead spirit without a future because my forefather was selfish and ungrateful, he defied the creator of the universe. The penalty was eternal death. I was lost separated from Love itself by the offense that was in my blood. I had no hope, the judgement was fair, I didn’t deserve God. But God is Love so he said he’d die for me so I could come back to him and be happy. For centuries you forefathers hoped for a kinsman redeemer but all men sin so none could redeem. The law said a man must redeem for the sin of man so it seemed impossible except for the word from the creator We waited, prayed and hoped. #monday Jesus hung out with friends #tuesday didn’t seem different #wednesday his close friend betrayed him. Even if you know it’s coming it hurts. In Psalm Jesus said ‘even the ones I shared my food with betrayed me, I said nothing cause God did it...they celebrated my downfall... #thursday Jesus carried a cross and I carried the weight of my betrayal. Our future was on the cross Christ carried. I needed something from him that I didn’t deserve, couldn’t ask for, never would have thought was possible but when he said he would do it I hoped. On Good Friday the thing that I hoped for, that my forefathers longed for happen. It was the most incredible day. The most Holy day ever, the day Jesus proposed to me and gave his life as a #bridesprice I was #redeemed#imfreenow#icanmakeheaven#imhappy#imhighmaintenance#jesusdiedforme#lettheredeemedofthelordsayso#amen
Lot of things happened last year!
Now, got my almost second year of sobriety and I live better day after days with my bipolar disorder.
I still hurt, it's still hard sometimes but a new chapter begins RN. I'm just a human and each day I try to be better. Just, I mean, I'm the best I ever been, I live each day like it's the last one. And step by step I'm gonna accept myself #selflove .